Eretica's Insane Ranting

My Insane Ramblings

Who am I? I don't think that's as important as what I have to say.

Now, that's something that will change from one moment to the next, because I find that I can go from near genius to having nothing of value to contribute whatsoever.

Maybe, if I can remember to do it, I'll document my near genius moments and print them here in html format for the sake of posterity, and to prove to all of you that I am, in fact, capable of original thought once in a great while.

Must you know anything else about me? What is there to tell. I'm almost 28, and just now allowing myself to enjoy childhood. I never have preferred to do things the standard way. I waited until I was of legal age to sow wild oats, and until I was near 30 to discover a way to inact my fantasy through roleplaying.

I've always had a vivid imagination, and alot of passion. The combination allowed for many quiet hours in which I would lose myself to the world around me, and live out these daydream fantasies that managed to keep me sane in situations that were less than nurturing, subtly tragic, and oftentimes depressing.

I think we do a great injustice by not allowing ourselves to continue to fantasize, dare to dream the impossible. I'm thankful some still do, despite the obvious lack of acceptance in our society, because we have these 'obsessed dreamers' to thank for all the wonderful breakthroughs in science and the arts that we all benefit so much from.

I wasn't allowed the chance to be a child in many respects. Many a day and night were filled with tears and ulcers from the stress that consumed me, became so much a part of my life as I was pressed into a mold that I didn't fit into...no matter how hard they pushed.

I'm not going to spend any more time crying about that. My life is mine now, and if I gained anything from my experiences as a child and teen, it is the courage to fight to be yourself, to become independant and stubborn enough, interested enough...to find yourself. And, when you do....to love who you find, AND.....to live life with a fucking passion, because there's always something beautiful to see, or to feel, if I just open myself up to it.

I still have my imagination. I can still sit here in my chair and weave the most fantastic stories in my mind...where my body has no limitations, my mind is as open and free as I choose for it to be....the universe is mine for the taking. I can, and I do...and I love it.

I also love erotica, and that's why the pics of the naked people...but that's another rant.